11.29.2004, 2:24 am

life is holding the football, and i'm charlie brown

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i'm still unemployed and i'm really starting to get depressed.

and my car got impounded today because of a stupid fucking christmas parade that i didn't even know about.

arghhhhh.

i need to go to new york for new years. i cannot be here by myself. i need to be surrounded by friends, drugs and alcohol. i have none of those right now.

...i guess there IS a bottle of vodka here, but i'm not about to drink it.

i need to find a job. i need to get this stpid program i've been working on to work. i need to write. i need to write and record songs.

i didn't want it to come to this, but i'm going to have to start scheduling my empty time. no more waking up at 1pm and not being able to sleep til 4am.

ironically, its 2:30am and i'm wide awake.

also, don't let me forget to pick up jen at the airport tomorrow.