04.20.2004, 10:48 am

phasing out the stupid

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it's been dawning on me lately that i don't enjoy smoking as much as i used to. i think weed is going the way of alcohol for me... it's just leaving. last time i drank heavily was... hell, i don't even remember. last time i got remotely drunk was over winter break, pretty much because its impossible not to when you spend as many nights in the bars as we did.

last time before that that i can remember: end of last school year. what a rambling entry THAT was.

and so it goes with smoking. i'm no longer excited at the prospect. scott busted in last night and was like "pack your stuff, kids, we're going to uncle steve's. tomorrow is 4/20 and we're smoking at midnight." obviously i can't go, and yeah would like to, but honestly, i don't feel like i'm missing out on anything anymore.

i'm slowly factoring it out of my life. next thing to factor out is either sleeping too much or being a fat lazyass.

i'm sure i'm not going to quit for good, not anytime too soon. slope day and senior week are on the horizon, and it ain't a party unless the heezy is nowhere to be found.

also, i'd like to start going on walks once it gets warmer out. romped walks. ithaca, and campus in particular, is an interesting place. all sorts of neat things to see.

i set my alarm for 9:00 and now its 11:00. so much for getting my life in order. maybe i can do that now. i still have time.

i still have time.